The Crossroad of Familiarity
Bright mid-day sun. Last track of morning seminar ended. Left the place to attend a lunch invite. Boarded a taxi, driver told me it is near, but it's alright if I choose to continue. Smilingly, we parted. Lugging my laptop bag and haversack, I proceeded walking. Crossed traffic light. Turned on Gothere.sg on my mobile. Walked and occasionally squinted at the screen of the mobile for GPS location in the bright sunlight.
Finally almost reached the destination. Looked ahead the surroundings. Did I ever dream of this place, or did I not? It looked so familiar, but I've never been past this area. It was slightly skewed in terms of my direction of walk. In my mind's eye, I walked towards those vertical slabs of concrete. I made a conscious decision to deflect from deja vu. By turning into the building instead of walking towards the familiar place. It felt familiar. It was this feeling. But finally I will not know if it's deja vu, a mental illusion or just plain normal to feel that way, because I consciously decided not to proceed to "realise" it by not walking towards the familiar area.
So much so just like our life. Each day, we make conscious and sub-conscious choices. By our thoughts, speeches and actions, we create ripples across the surrounding world of our interaction. We receive ripples from the outside, some of which are reciprocated ripples originated from us, across time and space.
Digression
Is it a coincidence? Is there an underlying message? Or a moral lesson to it? It definitely felt like a test of my wills. These ripples ... I have never seen it coming. It began in subtle measures, unassuming, until it began to amplify to an level of which my heart begins to listen in.
I have never anticipated it coming. So is the same that happened years before. Now, this is another unique circumstance. I was naive to think that I am able to achieve what I think I am how I am. It's strange, as the amplitude of the ripples' wave has a considerable amplitude, yet it remains subtle in some kind of dichotomous way, the image of ... alternating between crystal clarity and a blur that I could never consciously control.
Is this a bug or a feature? I hope it has arrived full circle.
Bright mid-day sun. Last track of morning seminar ended. Left the place to attend a lunch invite. Boarded a taxi, driver told me it is near, but it's alright if I choose to continue. Smilingly, we parted. Lugging my laptop bag and haversack, I proceeded walking. Crossed traffic light. Turned on Gothere.sg on my mobile. Walked and occasionally squinted at the screen of the mobile for GPS location in the bright sunlight.
Finally almost reached the destination. Looked ahead the surroundings. Did I ever dream of this place, or did I not? It looked so familiar, but I've never been past this area. It was slightly skewed in terms of my direction of walk. In my mind's eye, I walked towards those vertical slabs of concrete. I made a conscious decision to deflect from deja vu. By turning into the building instead of walking towards the familiar place. It felt familiar. It was this feeling. But finally I will not know if it's deja vu, a mental illusion or just plain normal to feel that way, because I consciously decided not to proceed to "realise" it by not walking towards the familiar area.
So much so just like our life. Each day, we make conscious and sub-conscious choices. By our thoughts, speeches and actions, we create ripples across the surrounding world of our interaction. We receive ripples from the outside, some of which are reciprocated ripples originated from us, across time and space.
Digression
Is it a coincidence? Is there an underlying message? Or a moral lesson to it? It definitely felt like a test of my wills. These ripples ... I have never seen it coming. It began in subtle measures, unassuming, until it began to amplify to an level of which my heart begins to listen in.
I have never anticipated it coming. So is the same that happened years before. Now, this is another unique circumstance. I was naive to think that I am able to achieve what I think I am how I am. It's strange, as the amplitude of the ripples' wave has a considerable amplitude, yet it remains subtle in some kind of dichotomous way, the image of ... alternating between crystal clarity and a blur that I could never consciously control.
Is this a bug or a feature? I hope it has arrived full circle.
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